Missing Dad This Holiday Season


This Holiday season is going to be a tough one for me and my family. It will be the first one without my dad. He was a very important part of my life and a big influence throughout my life as well. Though we may not have always seen eye to eye, we would spend time together whether it was watching sports together (usually Mets, Giants and sometimes the Jets) or what ever else we decided to do. We also went to many NY Mets games (buying 15 games packs together) especially in 2008 and 2009 (these were the last year of Shea Stadium and the first year of Citi Field).

My dad passed away New Years Day about 3:30AM. He was sick and in the hospital for almost a month. Last Christmas was hard as we spent many hours up at the hospital with him. The whole idea of the holidays is to spend it with family, right? Though at a hospital bedside is not the way I ever imagined it would be but at least he was with us and we prayed for him to get better so he could come back home.

This year as my family is decorating for Christmas I feel we are doing it just to do it or at least a part of me feels that way. Christmas has always been my favorite time but this year I am not 100% in the spirit the way I have felt in previous years as I know he will not be sitting at the table with us. We will not be doing things any differently yet it will definitely be different. I have been trying to push myself & to get myself in the spirit but there are times lately where I just want to crawl into a ball and forget about the whole thing. Some say it will get easier though I believe over time you just learn how to deal with the pain. My family is the reason I am moving forward and trying to feel the spirit of the season.

Also check out The First Christmas Without My Father.

If you have a story to share, feel free to leave your comments down below.


About Ray Gruenfelder

Creator and Founder of The Guy Corner NYC, the Guys lifestyle blog (Tech, Sports, Food, Drinks & much more). A married father of 2, this page is dedicated to "Guy Stuff". I am also Co-Founder of NYC Wine Guys, a wine blog from 2 guys from Queens, NY.

Posted on December 9, 2013 2:17 pm, in The Family Guy, The Jock and tagged , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 8 Comments.

  1. Sorry for your loss. I hope your holidays are still enjoyable, if a bit bittersweet.


  2. All normal feelings Ray…go with the flow. Try and find some positives…,you and the old man had a lot of great times together – cherish those moments and keep positive for the little ones. The pain doesnt go away – like you said, you learn to deal with it differently. Happy Holidays Mets fan…see if upper management is interested in taking A-hole off our hands next….


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